Some thoughts and craving experiences of a first-time Mom.

Since I was a kid, I know that I will have a family of my own at the right time. I even had a timeline for everything, including when to get married and have a kid. Growing up in a simple family from the countryside somewhere on an island in the Philippines was enough motivation not to marry early. That is why I married late compared to my fellow in our community or my sisters. I remember they even thought and considered me as an old maid. Na, I am not that old yet; I was twenty-eight when I finally decided to tie the knot. However, it was just the place or, let's say, tradition that made me OLD!

As I mentioned, I had a timeline set, and having a kid was supposed to be before I reached the age of thirty. At that time, two years was long enough to make it happen. Thus, luck wasn't on my side, and I got frustrated in the past years. Honestly, it already ran in my mind that maybe my role in this life was to be a forever Tita, Auntie. It hurts, but what can I do if that is what I am destined to do?

The unexpected blessings!

It was not unexpected as we had planned this, yet we tried a couple of times but failed. However, finally after five years of waiting, we finally got pregnant, days before my 34th birthday! . It feels so unreal at first, not until I see my baby's heart beats for the first time!

Since then, my life has changed; the world suddenly became more colorful than usual. The love between the husband and I seemed to grow more, not that we are having the fruit from our flesh and blood, from our LOVE!

As a first-time mom, I was simultaneously excited and worried, and I had some fears. I need to be extra careful with my moves, food, and actions.

Just like going to work every day. Before, I used to cross over that overpass as the FX (public transpo) was on the other side. Thus, since I got pregnant, climbing up the stairs became a challenge. I feel so tired and have shortness of breath, plus I am paranoid that something might happen.

Now, I walk straight ahead and pass by in between that space! Yes, like those ladies are doing! It only takes longer as I have to wait until vehicles are rare or drivers are generous enough to let me cross. There is no pedestrian here 🤣.

Pregnancy carvings and other weird things.

Well, aside from the unexplained tiredness and hunger I felt most of the time, my crazy cravings started just a week before I was done with the first trimester. These days, what to eat has been one of my problems. I often bought food, but after tasting it, I found it meh, so I gave it to my office/housemate. At least I should be thankful they aren't that picky, so the food was well-spent. They even got used to me, and sometimes they would ask hey, Lhes, I am hungry. Is there any food you bought that you don't feel like eating? Common, give it to me so it won't be wasted.

There was even one night that I suddenly craved for chopsuey. I was drooling and hungry, thinking of crispy cabbage and broccoli as I chew. I am alone as my husband is working abroad. So, I opened my food delivery app to order. Thus, after checking several restaurants, I haven't ordered anything. Why? All didn't look delicious to me. I wouldn't say I like how it looks in the photos. I had a hunch that I wouldn't be satisfied with the taste! I ended up frustrated that night, so I woke up early the next day to cook.

Well, this is what I want: sautéed veggies and some seasonings! No meat, as it makes me puke!

Not only that, but I also love to dip any fruits with salt. It could be unripe mangos, apples, strawberries, anything! But na, I don't find it weird this time, as when my sister @asiaymalay was pregnant, she used to eat salt 🤣.

What was the weirdest, then?

I constantly throw up this past day every time I brush my teeth and bathe! For some reason, the moment I tasted the toothpaste in my mouth, my stomach started to feel weird, and I was already kneeling in front of the toilet bowl. I feel so drained; it hurts and feels like my intestine came out while puking, lol! 🤣

In taking a bath, the moment the water started to run down my body, the same thing happened 😂. Yet, there is no way I won't brush my teeth or not take a bath, right? Especially these days when I always feel so hot, like summer!

For Mommies, does anyone experience this?

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