BUILDING BUTENE ( ORGANIC CHEMISTRY)

Today in our minor subject the Organic chemistry class, we were tasked with making the atomic structure of butene, and honestly ,it makes me felt like a mix of excitement, confusion and quiet determination. Why, because u know I’ve always liked chemistry. I really admire the science of how it explains the unseen world, how atoms bond, break, and transform into something new. But guess what sometimes, it feels like that chemistry doesn’t like me back hehe.

So, for our activity, I was the one who bought all the materials. I didn’t mind, because I wanted our project to be complete and also to be presentable. However, I've also reminded to my group members to pay for their contributions, since teamwork means sharing both the effort and the true responsibility.

Did u know that Butene, with the chemical formula C₄H₈, is an alkene so it meaning it has at least one double bond between carbon atoms. On paper, that seems simple. But when we actually trying to build its atomic structure using models or diagrams, it feel a little more complicated. Because you have to think about carbon valency, hydrogen placement and where exactly that double bond belongs. So, it’s not just about memorizing the formulas it’s about truly understanding how atoms connect in space.

As we started building the structure, I noticed how each carbon atom needs four bonds. Some are single bonds, some are double, and each hydrogen fills the remaining spaces. One small mistake one missing hydrogen or misplaced bond and the entire structure becomes incorrect. That’s the part of chemistry that humbles me: it demands precision. You can’t guess your way through it. Chemistry wants accuracy, patience, and focus.

There were moments when I felt lost. I stared at my model thinking, Why is this so hard for me? Everyone else seemed to move faster, more confidently. That’s when the thought crossed my mind: I like chemistry, but chemistry doesn’t like me. It’s a joke, but also a real feeling when you try your best and still struggle, it’s easy to feel discouraged.
But something interesting happened. As I adjusted the bonds, fixed the hydrogen placements, and reviewed the structure again, I slowly began to see it more clearly. Butene wasn’t just a random arrangement of atoms anymore it became a pattern, a system, a structure that made sense. That moment, when confusion turns into understanding, is the reason I keep showing up to chemistry class.

By Making the atomic structure of butene it teach me more than just organic chemistry. And It reminded me that learning isn’t always smooth. Sometimes, you struggle. Sometimes, you feel like the subject is working against you. But growth happens in those moments. That Each mistake becomes a lesson. Each correction becomes progress.
So yes, I still like chemistry even on the days it feels like it doesn’t like me. Because chemistry challenges me. It also pushes me to think deeper , be more precise and not give up easily. And maybe, just maybe, chemistry does like me after all it’s just testing how committed I am.</div