I am shocked and concerned about your heart issues! Hoping your recent experience has unlocked a treatmenf for you!! Have you tried myfreedoctor.com for a prescription and a sensible pharmacy to fill it for you? Maybe have them add ED drugs (probably a good idea to avoid those, btw lol) so it passes as a confidential mailing?
I know this has to be for real because you are NOT one to put down cannabis! Was CBD oil having the same correlation? Wishing you the best!