You know, sometimes we find things that work for us and then for some explicable reason, we stop doing it - even though it was working. What I think happens is that our habits are never far away from the surface and even after we have developed better strategies, over time our own complacency lets the roots of habit sprout again and creep in the door.
I was thinking about this lately in regards to a scarcity mindset. I have one.
After decades of not having enough that started in childhood, life taught me that I better eat while I can because tomorrow, the opportunity might be gone. This goes beyond delaying gratification as at times it feels more like doing what I must to survive and even though I logically know I will be okay and back my skills and brains to face whatever arrives, my head still says, there will never be enough.
I think the "never enough" attitude can be mistaken for greed, however I believe there is a difference in direction. While greed is always chasing more, I feel that I am trying to escape from not having enough. There is quite an attitude difference in those who are running toward their goals, and those who are running away from their fears.
I have plenty of fears.
I was talking to a friend last night who is to my knowledge, intelligent and well enough invested to have to worry and it got me thinking, What does that feel like? and then - Will I ever experience that feeling? Because even though I back my survival, I always sense those roots of emotional habit crawling in through the door.
I think this is part of the reason I am so invested in pretty much all ways into Steem as, while I would love for it to pay off financially, I feel like for the first time in my life I am running toward something, not away from it. For me, this is a value that perhaps not many people recognize as they focus on the earnings only, not the what is actually being built in order to get there. The investment into the future isn't just about the money because to get to that point, something has to be created.
I see that in the future, the mass migration onto the Steem blockchain isn't just going to be through the host of applications that are created to attract users, it will be the capabilities Steem offers established business models to improve their business strategies and compete in a more open market as it could them on a more even footing with the conglomerates.
It won't happen quickly, but bit by bit more channels of business will integrate and utilize the blockchains and as a result, new users will adopt it organically through interacting with the business layers. This will in turn drive more people to explore deeper and start investing into and developing their own experiences by offering their own skills and minds into the mix.
This is what I am running toward, even as I acknowledge that not far below the surface, there is a specter of fear that feeds off the uncertainty and doubt it creates.
What if I am wrong, what if this fails, what if I am a fool?
Questions of fear that look to gain traction by appealing to authority - the authority of ego. This is what my specter is looking to protect, itself.* It doesn't actually care about failure, it just doesn't want to look like an idiot in front of others. I wonder how many businesses were not started because someone didn't want to publicly fail? It is kind of interesting when on Steem we can see quite a lot of the decisions people make in regards to their businesses. And, if you are looking to earn from what you offer -it is a business.
Many run theirs into the ground.
Maybe they see their business as disposable, that what they put out into the world as something they throw away when it doesn't work, when it fails. For me, I own my business because what I offer is part of me, and even though it changes over time with experience of thought, it will forever be part of the chain of my life. Isn't it strange how many people are not willing to invest into their own life experience now even though they want return later?
Nothing lasts of course, but all things evolve because as is indicated, energy can't be created or destroyed, only transformed. I am looking to use all the stored energy of my fears as a resource and see what it can be transformed into. While scarcity may be one of the drivers, abundance could be the outcome.
You might be young, you might not care about your future because you have a mindset that life is lasting, there will always be time. There is not, it is fleeting and if one doesn't think about the evolution of the self over a lifetime, one can be stuck in an experience of immaturity, one of reliance on others to provide. Cattle class.
Maybe it is the position we take out of habit as after all, our first habits are created when we were children - many of them sick through a lifetime, no matter what we learn along the way.
[ a Steem original ]