RE: Reclaiming My ‘Why’ in a World That Keeps Moving
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As usual positivity with some balance. Its lovely to see you live you day daily with purpose. That means you do something meaningful daily!
Now, I know a little what I want to do and its aligned with my passion but things don't take off(: ... Maybe I have to be at it harder, deeper... For me, I found meaning in such unlikely things(:
Web3 and crypto kept me engaged at COvid, so did my cats...
Now its changed but I got more and more hurdles and I keep you telling I am mostly in pain, though I forget it when I am writing or deep into something.
I do things without meaning to(: ... anyway... yes I see I need to see progress, I don't. and many times atleast I see no future!
It's also now, I am on and off pain... because of a difficult situation. It's comes to all... when say your father has a heart that needs to be repaired and you know its hard when you are now at it alone kind.
You tend to think life can throw a bomb shell like Trump Tariff on you and it;s going to be hard kind.
I also sometimes crying and thinking how I can handle life when there is a big vacuum. Anyway...
But I guess you have to embrace reality, and do your best, and all the bitterness within me towards my dad is brewing but I know yet I have to do my best to keep him going and get alright.
I am actually finding love, support from others and taking help, because I know I won't be able to manage kind, may take wrong decisions, may not do the right treatment or leave things unaddressed as it is.
Coming to think about it, I have got help and support from my Dad's own well wishes, they even bear my bitterness towards him and direct to me to larger picture and what matters and all...so I guess got strenght to go on but finding it stressful when I think of so many things ahead and I breakdown 1ce a day.
Morning I get up and so on as usual... when I talk to well wishers, I sound fine kind... but bitterness with my dad on how he distrusted his daughter, never respected me, never paid heed to me and all the negetative statements he made... makes me feel I hate him too... yet in the end I got to help about... I feel bad about me too... but got to keep myself well too to do stuff ... its getting very hard. Anyway
Sometimes it’s best to let go. Hating someone for what they did to you isn’t going to change anything, it’s only going to worsen the pain.
I hope you let go so you can heal and maybe rekindle your relationship.
Sending you love and light.
That's very true... but if the same saga continues because the person is super arrogant, or has double standards ... still bad. My life I feel is almost done(: 40 yrs and I don't think there is much that can improve or change.
But I take all the love I get on the way from u and others and keep going. Keep growing, yes this pain is terrible though... anyway good day!
Keep moving on with purpose and intent and it will do you well...
Right, thanks for the kind words.