My personal battle this Christmas
A personal battle is what I consider in my life as an internal struggle, an emotional struggle, that is to say a part of me that does not want to do something, and another part of me that wants to do it, reasons why in this post I will reflect on some reasons for this emotional battle.
In my country the Christmas holidays are celebrated taking into consideration the family love, therefore being able to share with the family is very important, we share some typical food for these dates, we listen to some particular music, we share among neighbors in the neighborhood, in fact it is a very euphoric and heartfelt celebration.
However for this Christmas I have been very off, I have not planned any preparations to prepare the Christmas meal, and I do not feel like celebrating, since I was a child I was raised watching my parents in the joy that means the family preparation of typical foods such as hallaca, ham bread, salad, pork leg, sweet lechoza with pineapple, quesillo, among others. Seeing now that my parents are not here (they have passed away), makes all this joyless for me.
What is the feeling that makes me change and motivates me to want to celebrate this Christmas time in my country?
The reality is that I want to get involved a little with these festivities according to our traditions, all this motivational impulse is propitiated by the love I have for my three year old daughter (Diana Isabel), since I do not want her in any way or another not to live the experience of the festivities, on the contrary I want her to live the tradition, to receive her gifts, to live the illusion of the toy delivery by Papa Noah.
The moral of the case is that we can be very sad and unmotivated, but there will always be something that drives us to renewal, to change, to want to live a little happier, we just have to look and feel life in different ways.